Is it? Is it? No. But it needs to be.
This is my first week of full-time teaching, (The last two weeks have been mostly observing and part-time stuff,) and I'm officially going nuts. Being utterly sleep deprived was bad enough, but now I'm all filled with anxiety. Anxiety along the lines of WHAT IF I SUCK AT THIS. OH MY GOSH.
My schedule is as follows:
6:05. Wake up. Curse. Try not to kill spouse. (not because he did anything wrong, but because he is there and BREATHING at me and it is morning.)
7:15-2:10. Attempt to educate students.
2:10-9:00. Deal with conflicting emotions about major life choice-
I'm a decent almost-teacher. NO. AM NOT. SUCK A LOT. I'm new at this, It's okay to make mistakes, just keep trying. GIVE UP NOW. FAKE PREGNANCY AS AN EXCUSE TO DROP OUT OF PROGRAM. No, don't you are fine, your lesson on nature versus nurture in Lord of the Flies actually went really well.
Sometimes during the day, when I need a mental break, I play a game. I call it TO REPORT OR NOT TO REPORT: THINGS I WISH I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT MY STUDENTS.
And the nominees are:
1. In his "getting to know you" paper, my student listed "smoking pot and getting high" as one of his favorite pastimes.
2. One student threatened another student in the following manner: "Dude, for along time, you could, like, totally kill a Mormon in Missouri. It isn't true anymore, but if it was, I'd totally drag your ass to Missouri and kick your ass."
3. "My boyfriend and I both have independent study 3rd period. Is that enough time to go home and do it?* He can be late for fourth, but I can't, because I have Mrs. Holmes."
* yes. what you think "it" is.