Messes (Day 10)
One particularly messyterribleshitishittingthefanwinter I survived solely because my neighbors kept their Christmas lights up extra long.
They had a flag pole in their back yard. Which they wrapped in a single strand of twinkle lights. At the top, they left a second strand of lights in an enormous tangled knot. I think it was supposed to be a star?
It looked very, very, stupid. I loved it.
I loved that flying-spaghetti-monster star, and I loved that they didn't take it down after Christmas was over, or after New Year's, or after Valentine's Day.
I'd look at it from my kitchen window every morning as I got ready for work while it was still dark.
I'd see it every night when I came home from work in the dark.
I saw it even when my jeans fell off my hips and dark circles made a permanent home under my eyes.
I told myself I could keep getting up and keep coming home as long as I could see that mangled star shining a few yards over.
When I noticed it was gone, it was spring.